Silence is deafening...

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Bare with me here.

I need to just talk.....or shall I say, write.

I'm going through a rough time right now. It all started yesterday. Honestly though, this has been a rough month. It was fantastic in some parts, then it went sour once again.

So, I was sitting here a moment ago. You know when normal, familiar sounds can be comforting? You find peace in them. In my case, while sitting here, those sounds became overwhelming.

It's quiet yet, I hear the sounds of cars, birds, a neighbor pounding a hammer, or even the humming in my ear. The quiet became deafening. Then I felt the stress building in my chest. I want to run away but I have obligations.

I just wish I could rewind a day. When things were going good.

I've been in this place before. Many times. I've heard the same things. Many times. When do I start believing it? When do I take it serious?

I'm the one who is mad. PISSED to be honest! Yet, I ask myself....."Why am I the one stressing? Why am I the one with butterflies?"

I don't want to do anything. I just don't have the energy. I feel weak. This overwhelming feeling of stress is too much.

All I can do is pray for God's help. I just need to continue to have Faith that HE will help me through this.....again. He always does. Yet, here I am again. Apparently I haven't learned the lesson I'm suppose to learn.

I know life isn't easy. I just wish I had less trials than I'm dealing with right now....in this moment. Such a wonderful time of year becomes so tainted by every day life and trials. Always during the holidays.