Friday, October 30, 2009
I started off the morning getting my daughter and myself ready. It seemed like it was going smoothly until I realized I didn't have enough hands to grab everything. I was taking our new car which didn't have a car seat in it (yeah, we're still working on getting a 3rd car seat) so then I had to get into the other car to get the car seat and put it in.
You're probably asking yourself right about now "Why didn't you just take the car that had the car seat in it already?" right? Well, our new car is the travel car now. We are going to the Sharks game tonight which means we'll be driving an hour away which means we have to take the travel car. We bought this car cause we were putting too many miles on our other cars which now both have over 100k miles on them and my husband was just worried one of them were going to break down on us so we had to get a backup vehicle.
So, at this point I'm already getting a little frazzled cause I know the clock is ticking. I need to get my daughter to school on time as well as myself to work on time. It was taking longer than I was hoping for cause I had the wrong key so I had to dig into my purse, which if you're a woman, you already know the purse is nothing more than just a bottomless pit.
Okay, I'm in the car driving. I drop my daughter off and continue onto work. Then I look on my dash thingy and notice my gas has just dropped from 1/8 of tank to half that. What the heck?
As I'm heading my regular route, I decide to make a left instead of my usual right. Wrong move. Road construction. Then I come to a light and see a gas station at the corner but I thought to myself "I'll just go to the one by the on ramp. It'll be faster for me to just jump onto the freeway. So I carry on.
Meanwhile, I'm watching that clock. Yep, I'm so late! At least 5-10 min at this point.
Once I get to the gas station I had planned on going to, I pull in and.....WHAT??!! It's all cautioned taped off for service on the pumps. This just isn't my day. So I go down the street to try and find another one and what do I come to? More road construction. Geez! Enough already! Now I'm thinking to myself "I should have just got gas at that corner."
I come to a light and am pondering on if I should go straight or make a left. I go straight. And because I didn't notice beyond the light, I hit more road construction. YAH ME!
I finally found a gas station and got gas. Once I made it to the parking garage at my job, I'm a fumbling mess. Dropping stuff on the side of my seat. Dropping stuff on the other side of my seat, Almost drop my sweater on the ground. UGH!!
Good part about all this? I was 15 minutes late but there was No Boss!! I can finally breathe.
Don't you just hate it when you have one of those days?
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
My husband believes that it is a cure for all things. He believes that when I'm getting sick, he will pop a cap because it kills viruses so that he won't get it. Yes, also when he has a tummy ache and is suffering from his IBS (Irritable Bowel Syndrome), he will pop a cap because it kills his tummy aches.
In fact, we just had a conversation about this recently.
It went something like this....
Me: Are you drinking already? How many beers have you had?
Hubby: I'm on my first one.
So! This morning we were having yet another one of our conversations and that's when my hubby actually told ME that it was all mental.
You ask what was mental?
I've had my fair share of bras in my time and I have come to the conclusion that the Victoria Secret's brand is the best brand! Sure, I may fork out $48-$55 a pop every few months but hey, they provide comfort and support.
Now, I know all my lady friends would agree with me on this, right?! We have to be kind and give our girls some support. It's a must!
So, in reply to my husband.....
"Oh yeah, but I had a good reason. You don't understand.....
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Well, today we are having some powerful winds again. No rain but winds that nearly blew me over.
Today while I was fiddling around on the computer, I could hear the whistling of the wind and banging of wood. Banging of wood?? Uh oh! Yeah, so I decided to look out the window in my spare bedroom/computer room. Yep, to my wandering eyes did I see.....my neighbors house!
Now, if you notice from my previous post about my fence, I posted what the fence looked like.
Well, here's what it looks like today...right this minute! Great! To top it off (as I peer out the window looking at the gallopy of a fence as I'm typing this), the fence is leaning and ready to "all fall down". On a positive note:I don't have to fix it. That's what the hubs is for :D Poor hubby! He wasn't happy about it either. Oh, speaking of hubby's...he's home so gotta go!
Friday, October 23, 2009
Me: You think I'm a nice person, right?
Mom: *hesitation* Well, yes honey. You're a nice person.
Me: You think I'm a nice person mom, don't you?!
Then my daughter chimes in by my face into the phone "Mommy's a nice person!!"
(Awww, my precious angel! I do love her so much!)
That was enough for me. It bothered me so much that I called my mom on the way to work to share my feeling and poured my feelings out. Tears and all.
My mom felt so bad and reassured me that she didn't mean it the way it came out. That of course I'm a nice person that I just have my moments. My moments. My MOMENTS?
She said that I get mad easily is all.
Yes, I have a temper! I have German in me. I have a lack of tolerance for ignorance, laziness, lying and just plain rudeness. *sigh*
All day today at work I felt a bit...hmm...taken back by what my mom said and what my dad said. My feeling were hurt. BAD! So that's where I started thinking today.
Even though I have a very bad temper, does that honestly overshadow my otherwise goofy, silly, bubbly, ding dong self? I mean seriously! When I'm gone, are people going to remember me as the "girl who was always getting mad"? I am so sick over this!
Then when I got home from work, I shared my feelings with my husband and asked him the same question. Are people going to remember me as the "girl who was always getting mad"? He said "yes". At that point, I just broke down and needed to be by myself.
I never thought of myself that way. I know I am serious and that I get annoyed and irritated with people but I don't think most of it is without good cause. Sure, maybe I let somethings get to me easier than other times. Just depends on Mother Nature too. Honestly though, I think of myself more so as goofy and bubbly.
Am I having a semi mid-life crisis??? Seriously?!
Now that I've had time to think things out, write my thoughts down and I can think a little more clearly. I know I'm a good person. I am friendly with people. The kids at mydaughters school loves when I go to the school and help out. They even give me hugs. I have a couple BFF's. One who really confided in me and said that I was a good person. That has to account for something, right?! It all turns sour though when someone gets nasty or rude with me and I snap or get an attitude. Sure, maybe I need to relax and not let the small stuff get to me. I am trying, really I am.
Does that really make me not a nice person though? Does that really overshadow the good?
I don't know. I'm completely at a lose right now. Who am I? Am I really who I thought I was? Or am I who everyone apparently sees me as?
(Photo courtesy of Photobucket.com)
I have some things that are clouding my happiness today. Not to be a downer cause I can NOT stand being down so I tend to try and find ways of making myself happy. I love being happy, I super LOVE laughing and I love feeling at ease in my heart. So I thought I would take a moment and think about all my favorite things today.
If you have stuff that is clouding your happiness, maybe if you think of the positives in your life, it just may help you.
Here's my list (as always, never in any particular order)...
2. No Boss today!
3. I'm caught up on work so the boss told me to bring in a book to read which means this:
4. Sunshine outside the window
5. Both my Tori Spelling books: sTori Telling & Mommywood
6. Peace and quiet
7. Listening to KLOVE online
8. Knowing that I have God to get me through each day.
9. My family and friends
10. A job!!
11. My outlet...Photography!
I know there are probably more that I can think of to list but I will leave it at this for now.
What are your Friday Favorites?
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Okay, maybe not!
For instance, like just a minute ago when I was in the elevator here at work and there was a little lady sharing the space with me. I felt so much taller than her too, as odd as that may seem, I sure felt tall for my short little self.
Then you have my husband who is 6' 5" who has a dirty sense of humor. Yah, my height next to him, yah...you know where I'm going with this. ;O)
I often think of my husband and I as those two characters on Looney Tunes, Spike and Chester.
Yeah, I'm Chester, the little, bouncy, bubbly doggie and my husband is Spike, the BIG tough, serious dog ready to be all manly! lol
Hey, maybe being little isn't so bad! It can actually be cute :O)
Do you struggle with shortness? Maybe being too tall that people stare (like my husband deals with)?
Saturday, October 17, 2009
Last year it took us 2 hrs to get through it. Let's see if we can break that record.
Now, head over to Cate's to join the fun!
Thursday, October 15, 2009
Here's the thing...
I'm gonna keep this up on my blog until the end of the voting period so if all of you would come by everyday (or something close to it) and vote for her, I would appreciate it so, so much!!!
Maybe I'll even do my very first contest for it. Let me think about it. Or really, the biggie is asking the hubby to allow me to give away a gift card.
THANKS AGAIN!!! YOU GUYS ARE TRULY THE BEST!!
Really...I do appreciate it! :o)
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
Mama Kat had some really good prompts this week so I had to take advantage and participate. It's been a couple weeks, I think, since I last joined in so I thought it was a good time to join in again.
This week I've decided to go with #1: Interview my mom.
Question #2: What ages were your favorites?
Mom: I loved you guys when you were babies and when you were young teenagers, around 11-15 yrs old. It was always so much fun around Halloween getting you guys dressed up.
**Side note: Notice?! Teeeeenager years!! What parent says that? Mine! And why? Because I was a great kid, don't forget that!!!!**
Question #3: Do you miss having kids in the house?
Me: I then said "Cause I'm the greatest" and my mom replies "Ha ha, funny!"**
Question #4: What was the most difficult part of being a mom for you?
Mom: *silence* When you wouldn't listen to me.
Me: Which wasn't often!
Mom: No, it wasn't.
**Side note: SEE??!!! I WAS the greatest kid. Hey, don't blame me! ;O) **
Question 5: What was the most rewarding?
Mom: How you kids turned out.
Question 6: What is your favorite memory?
Mom: ha ha ha When you and Diane & I were having a good time in the living room and dad (she called my dad, "Dad" to me) yelled at us to shut up and we all got quiet. (yes, that was a funny moment!) and then when we (me, my mom, Diane and Wendy) would go to Clear Lake.
Me: Yeah, I miss those times.
I have to admit, it's fun to see what kind of things she comes up with also.
Some things will bring a warmth to my heart....
Yes, my husband was a good sport when my daughter asked him if she could paint his toe nails as his response was "Sure, why not."
This is as feminine as my husband will ever get.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
As my husband's cousin, Eric would jokingly say "Storm Watch 2009!!!" cause with the lightest rain pour the news stations always claim "a storm is coming in". At least that's what Eric always says cause he's from Buffalo, NY and has also lived in Miami where he's seen snow and hurricanes.
Well, not in this case. Not in my eyes anyway! (lol)
As seen here, we have the storm passing through our area.
Now, earlier when my husband and I woke up around 7:15am, my husband decided to go look out our back door and then says "I hope our canopy is okay". A second later he says "Never mind, it's destroyed!"
Okay, that was a bit of a exaggeration. He was just speaking on an instant impulse. All that was wrong was the canopy cover which is fabric, was half down and hanging. Also, we have the furniture out there with the cushions. So I instantly put my shoes on while in my pj's and ran out there and started grabbing the cushions and running them to the playhouse in the backyard. By the time I ran back after my last trip out there, my husband came out and started to get the rest of the canopy cover off as I helped. As I was tying back the curtains, he was taking down the chandelier. Needless to say, it's all good and although I was soaked, I feel better it's taken care of.
Yeah, I know we should have taken care of this yesterday but we are procrastinators.
Then, with this "Storm Watch", we are worried about our side fence. One of our neighbors that share that fence are....well, how should I put this? Okay, I'll keep this clean....Grumpy Old MEANIES! That's right! And needless to say, it's on a retaining wall which makes it even worse. Their house sits lower than ours but we're not sure which side of the property line that retaining wall sits. Well actually, the retaining wall has sort of disintegrated over the years....before us moving there.
Anyways, here's the fence. Doesn't look too bad, right?
Now the plan........to try and stay dry! Oh, and hope the fence doesn't fall!!
Monday, October 5, 2009
This weekend I was thinking though. It was difficult too cause as lonely as I may feel about this, I feel even more lonely when I have to spill my heart out to those I love for the last 16 yrs and am now starting to hear a diffence in them. Almost like a "not this again" tone. To them I'm sure it just sounds like "blah blah blah" cause it's always the same thing being said. I just feel like I'm burdening my loved ones with my issues and I don't want that.
The other thing is, when my husband and I are dealing with our "imperfect" marriage, it always happens late at night. I am not about to wake up my loved one(s) just to spill out the same ol' same ol' nonsense, so I refrain from doing so. Instead, I leave and park in a parking lot and think, cry and avoid calls from the hubby. Sometimes, I'll answer them only to tell him that I left so I don't have to hear the "nonsense".
I contemplated on posting this but I just felt like I needed to get this off my chest. I have decided to just turn my problem over to God and let him handle it for me. I can talk to HIM and he'll listen. He'll help me in ways that only HE can help me......and I'm truly grateful for that! Why? Because it is HIM that will help us with our marriage and get it the way it was meant to be because honestly, my husband and I are awesome together...minus this "nonsense".
Saturday, October 3, 2009
Cloudy With A Chance Of Meatballs!
In 3-D also!!
That's right, we'll be heading to the theatre today to see the most anticipated movie (in our household). Well, okay, maybe not the WHOLE household but close.
We're smuggling in our own 3-D glasses from a prior movie and pay for a regular matinee to save some extra cash-ola. Shhhh.....you didn't hear that from me though. ;O)
Hope you're all having a fun weekend! Oh, start it off by heading over to Cate's to join in the fun!
Friday, October 2, 2009
Since she was already on a roll with the pen, she decided that someone needed to put on a happy face....
Her tummy!(Oh, and yes, we washed it off!)
Do you have your kids draw on your back?
Thursday, October 1, 2009
31 more days left.
You know what that means?
Time for the ghost and gobblins.
Time for scary coffins and eerie sounds.
Time for pumpkins and scarecrows
What do you do for Halloween? Do you even celebrate it?