Saturday, August 9, 2008

The wrath

I'm so glad today is Saturday, for a couple reasons:

One, the last few days were spent with anxiety cause my husband and I were NOT getting along, dealing with the same shit for the last 15 years. I spent Thursday late morning/early afternoon over my friend, Angie's house giving her the details of Wed night and crying about it. I'm so glad she was there to lend support!! Then later I shared the same info to one of the VERY few people that knows the issue with my husband and I and has been there for me through this for the last 15 years, one of my BFF's, Linda. Thank you my friend for ALWAYS being there for me when I need you most!!

Two, because now we have once again reconciled until next time. We are back to the kind words and loving ways. I love my husband and I have fought so damn hard and too long for this relationship to let it dissolve to what most people find these days as "the easy way out". I made a vow, damn it and I plan to keep it.

He even told me earlier Wed. (before the wrath) that I was the "best wife ever". So, then WTF???!!! Why do we have to go through this? I don't want to spend the next 15 + years hearing the same shit and going through the same anxiety and watching other couples and being envious. I'm not an envious person but when all this crap comes down, yeah, I'll admit it...I can be!!

So, here we are.....Saturday! A fresh new day, new week to come and I am optimistic!! I'm even going to wash my husband's car cause I'm "the best wife ever!!!" LOL!

1 comment:

Denise said...

Ah...the envy! I get that way too - and you know what? I am envious of you two! :)

Just know that NO relationship is perfect - and the ones that seem like they haven't always seen them behind closed doors!

I am always here if you need to vent! Lord knows I need someone to vent to a lot too! :)